I ended my last post with the sentence…
Her guidance during that time did not give me any comfort. I did not grasp that a situation could be terrible but I was still suppose to be doing it.
Here is what I should have written: Her guidance during that time did not give me any comfort. I did not grasp that a situation could be terrible AND I was still suppose to be doing it.
It took several years before the first glimpse of why Richard was called to “build it anyway”. We were in the Las Vegas airport going who knows where and I was visiting the bookshop as I always do before a flight. I eye caught the words that had haunted me for over five years,
I froze in place and then regained my composure enough to buy the book. I had the book finished before I landed. It fit the category of books I really enjoy and after which I have designed my own book writing life: A small book with big impact. The book, of course, was Anyway by Kent Keith.
The following week Richard and I were driving to Cottonwood, Arizona to work at our little hotel. I read the book to him as he drove. Tears welded up in Richard eyes from the Keith’s account of how the book came to be, the disappointments he endured and the strength he gained from the experiences. It was as though someone finally understood what Richard had gone through.
The myth of “do the right thing and everything with turn out okay and you will be rewarded” was being dismantled with every line in I read. A belief was being dismantled and a new reality was being born.
You do not do good things to be rewarded. You do go things because doing good is all you are suppose to do. The reward is in the doing, not in the receiving some reward.